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Lora Smuts's avatar

I’ve started this week journaling for 10min a day to see what comes up. It’s been a positive experience so far but not necessarily easy to sit in silence without distractions.

I’ve also started reading Joe Dispenzas book How to Change your Mind which has been a helpful companion during the in between of who you were and are to be.

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Kaitlyn Pacheco's avatar

whew the silent pressure IS crushing! this hit home: "No wonder you're hesitating. You're not just making work. You're trying to hold your entire identity together."

thank you for creating and sharing this post! it feels like a lot of folks are stuck in this situation right now, and it's motivating to hear how others are working through it. keep on keeping on! :)

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Kel Rakowski's avatar

Thank you for commenting Kaitlyn! It's the identity part, crushing – but we'll get through it!

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Stela BM's avatar

I'm in my mapping my network and reaching out to people phase, no idea where exactly this is leading me, but I truly have to pivot as I'll be unemployed (by choice) from September.

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Justine Valentine's avatar

Ah yes yes yes! This is honestly exactly what I needed to hear right now. I am trying to build a business and keep thinking I need to have it fully figured out before I launch it but I feel like I may never actually announce it to the world with that mindset. So thank you!!

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Caitlin's avatar

Love this Kel!! Also hell yeah to Baby steps! Not to overshare but whenever I'm feeling stuck, I sing Baby Steps/Don't give up to the tune of Baby Shark. Surprisingly...it works.

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Estef M. Cruz's avatar

Yess! 100% agree. I'm in the same situation and doing all these things. Sometimes it's hard, but, definitely, the more you listen to yourself, the more clarity you have and the path is building itself. I'm a complete new person this year compared to last one. Discovering my neurodivergence last year (giftedness, multipotenciality, *HSP) and this year the reason I chose the "traditional path", all my trauma, all my pains, my struggles... (Due to my environment...) It's being revealing for my personal project, what I'm studying and where I'm heading to (changing Physio for Creativity in a nutshell). But I can't wait to start monetizing something to leave my personal situation... Thanks for your post! I felt understood. ✨💕

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angel's avatar

Kel, you’re truly the best at articulating the hurdles of the creative in-betweens! Thank you for this post

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Jen Mayer | Makeist's avatar

“You’re not just choosing what to make next. You’re trying to make money. Stay visible. Reinvent yourself without losing momentum or self-worth.” Have you being camping out in my brain? 😂 This liminal space is HARD. But it helps to read and connect with essays like this. Thank you. 🙏

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Kel Rakowski's avatar

Thank you for commenting and sharing. This space is brutallll

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Seth Werkheiser's avatar

"But clarity doesn’t usually come from thinking. It comes from doing—writing, sharing, experimenting, publishing something small." HECK YES. Over and over again.

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Kel Rakowski's avatar

yes yes yes even tho at times you don't want to actually do that work. the time block helps

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